why am i still here?

it's late so i'll be quick.

i got this thought that i need to put it down in writing.

it happened when i met my friends tonight.

we met at beer garden and from that i just knew that one of my good friends, Ejie, is leaving jakarta to go to france this monday.

she's going to spend a year to study there.

so, tonight was like a farewell party for her.

and it got me thinking.

it starts with;

Nina Evayanti.

she's got in at Department of International Affairs.

she's been taught be a diplomat, for god's sake.

she can be a diplomat in New York or France.

how awesome is that?

Adimas Mulya.

He will continue his studies for international affairs in England.

he leaves on September 28th.

Rezzy Nizawati.

my good friend Ejie will leaves on September 19th to France.

she's going to learn french for a year then going to work there.

don't get me wrong, i'm so proud of them.

i'm so proud calling them my friends, but it got me thinking.

they're already moving on with their life

and WHY AM I STILL HERE?

again, don't get me wrong

leaving UI was a best decision in my life,

i'm happy at LSPR.

but you know, when most of your friends are leaving for continuing their journey in life

and you're still at exact point when you and your friends started this together

you start to asking question to yourself..

why am i still here...?

cheers,

-c.