die alone

well, hello again. its been a month since my last posting
well, actually i've been really busy at the moment with the final test but this weekend i get an off, so i can relax a bit.
January was already ended. what was happen in January?
let me think
ehmmm i'm turning 21 in Januari
and i got sick in Januari. yeah, i had this fever for almost a week
and because of that, i've been thinking about the worst disease that you're afraid of.
some came up with cancer
some came up with AIDS
some came up with heart attack
but if you ask me, i'm gonna say ALZHEIMER.

alzheimer
not many people know about this disease
its a disease that makes you forgot some aspects in your life
you just lost your memory until you cant act like yourself because
YOU JUST FORGET WHO YOU REALLY ARE.
that's just horrible.

but alzheimer could not kill you,
because you're not able to take care of yourself
you might ended getting another disease, and thats probably can kill you.

but still, even if its cant kill you, it doesn't mean this disease is not so scary
imagine if you have alzheimer and you cant remember your own parent,
your own sister/brother, your own family, your love one?
you cant remember the day you went to your first day to school
you cant remember your first crush
you cant remember your own graduation
the first time you get drunk
the first time you had kiss
the first time you fell in love
the first time you made your parent proud
all you can do is forget
and then,
you just die alone
without remembering every important persons in your life.
you are die alone.
and thats the worst, alone.

so that's excatly why i'm so scared of alzheimer
die alone.
everybody is going to die
its scary i know, but eventually, you're gonna die
but i think i will die happy if there's still a lot of people that i love so much in my life
like my parent, my sister, my big family, my bestfriend, my friends
are still around me at the time that i die.
at least i die surrounded by people that i love
the people that I REMEMBER that i love them so much.
so, nothing scarier that forgeting all of that and die alone.


cuppps
.citra